One Sperm and One Egg…Sounds so Damn Simple
I am such a trooper during the first week of the two week wait. I have random moments of boob grabbing, but rather than that I am fairly chill. Once we get down to the one week , it is a whole new game. I start doing crazy things. Like googling things like “cycle day 20 pregnancy symptoms” or “early pregnancy symptoms” and so on and so on. I call this crazy because I already know what I am going to find on any site that I pull up with a search term like that. I will find that early pregnancy symptoms are breast tenderness, food aversions, missed period, sensitive to smells, nausea, etc. I know all of this! I am not sure what I expect to be on one of the numerous sites that I go to. But still I seem to think I need to try to find something new or maybe I am just looking for something that pops up and tells me to keep my hopes high.
Last night I went back and looked at the posts during the time that Violet got pregnant. In one of the posts I talked about how we were in the beginning of the one week wait and how Violet’s breasts were sore from the Ov.idrel. Nine months and many failed cycles later, I am so much better educated (by the BFN’s and the months and months I have had to read) and I now know that was not the Ov.drel but the very beginning of our baby. Even though my brain knows that every pregnancy is different, I can’t help but be sad that there are absolutely no symptoms 8 days past the IUI. We will test on Sunday. Then we really are taking more than one month off from this. Every time I say that we are taking time off, we take at the most a month off, but I am going to really commit to it so that we can resume life without thinking about that damn sperm fertilizing on freaking egg.
Wow, I think we might be the same person! I’m also on Day 8 post IUI. I also do really well the first week of the TWW (this is TWW #15 so I consider myself a bit of an expert by now) and then start to google “early pregnancy symptoms” and then wonder why I bother. I’ve never had a BFP so I obsess over every “symptom” or feeling I’m having. This time it feels like PMS. Just like the last 14 times. I hope I’m wrong, but…
If I get a BFN this time I too will take time off. A few months at least. I’ve totally forgotten what it’s like to live my life without thinking about my uterus. I don’t know if I can do it.
Hang in there. I’ll try to do the same.
It’s amazing how much our lives revolve around that one sperm and one egg. I’m keeping everything crossed that you and Violet get that BFP, and I understand why you would want to take a little more time off if you don’t. And sometimes we just need to take a break from freaking G.oogle. For reals.
Symptoms shmymptoms. I’m 11 weeks pregnant and still don’t have symptoms. I know it’s hard not to obsess, but I don’t think you should get too worried about Violet not feeling anything yet. I’ll be thinking of you two on Sunday!