Second Time Around
The main thing on my mind as I sit and relax after a long week is how much we absolutely love carpooling together. Every afternoon my heart jumps a beat and all the stress that has set in my body diminishes as soon as I walk out of work and see V sitting in my car. My very favorite part of my day is the very instant V sees me come out of work. Her face lights up in a smile that shows how happy she is to see me. I am not sure how we will ever not carpool to work everyday. It makes my day so much better and brighter. It really is all about the small things in life that make the big picture so much better.
Today is CD 14 for V. She got a positive OPK at about 6 pm last night and then I rolled up my sleeves and gave her a shot filled with Ov.idrel at 11:00. We will be meeting our midwife at 10:00 tomorrow morning for IUI #2. This time with a different donor, as we found out recently that our previous one is inactive.
As we are going through this second cycle I am constantly reminded of the miscarriage. As we do each step in the procedure I think back to last time, the time that created our first pregnancy. There are so many differences between our first insemination and this one. The main difference being that we are lacking the enthusiasm that we had before. The miscarriage has seriously effected our outlook of this cycle. I guess it is human nature to learn and become guarded due to past experiences.
We have decided to not tell anyone that we are trying gain. This somewhat simple task is proving to be rather difficult. Since we were a tad bit excited the first time around we told practically everyone we were trying and that we were pregnant. Now all of these people frequently ask us when we are trying agin. We typically answer, “Oh, we are not sure”. Which is not too much of a lie, because we never knew the exact date that we would try again. But since we do know and V will have her second IUI on Sunday morning, we are not sure how to respond. We both are honest and do not feel right lying, but we do not want to be in the awful position we found ourself when the miscarriage occurred. Our plan?? Just hope people don’t ask. I guess we will see how that works out for us.
I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!
Mommies In The Making 
Isn’t carpooling wonderful? Elizabeth and I are able to carpool a few days a week, and it makes it so much easier to get out of the house in the morning, knowing I have a little more time to spend with my love.
I know how hard it can be to not tell anyone you’re TTC. I’ve been keeping it a secret for over a year now! I suppose if people ask, you can say “we’ll let you know as soon as we have any news”. That way you won’t have to lie, and hopefully people will know to stop asking.
I’m sorry to hear that the miscarriage is making it hard to be enthusiastic this time around. I hope you two can dig deep within yourselves and remember the joy you felt when you got your positive test. I hope the knowledge that you will feel that joy again someday very soon can help get you through the pessimism and doubt. You can do this.
D and I carpool everyday and I admit I love that extra bit of time. Also, we’re mostly keeping our attempts secret. It’s so hard sometimes but then when it doesn’t work, I’m glad we did. Very, very glad.
Good luck this time!
total great big yay for carpooling with your very own wife!